[Hux doesn't fight Kylo when he takes his hands, although the general doesn't seem any more wiling to truthfully answer. He just tries to keep an air of dignity as he meets his partner's eyes with his own.
Look, he's fine. Everything is fine. Who cares about a dumb anniversary!! The only anniversary that should be celebrated is when he finally takes over the galaxy.]
I just figured that you needed food, that's all. I know it may surprise you that I sometimes think of your personal well-being. [Kylo is no use beaten down anyway.]
[Typical Armitage. He supposes he should stop expecting any form of openness without effort on his part at this point, but it's fine. He's dealt with it before, and he'll continue to deal with it.
They both know what it's for, anyway, so he's just going to respond as if they've already acknowledged it.]
But Hux is unable to hide his flustered expression when Kylo just plainly acknowledges their anniversary. So, he did remember! Well, that's good-- wait, what does he mean by that exactly?!
...Not that Hux can blame him, not this time.]
No. [The general responds quietly, letting some of his more petty feelings fade.] Especially not after we both returned from Crait. I hated you.
[And of course, he still hates Kylo in some ways, that won't ever disappear. Not just for messing up on Crait, but for taking the role of Supreme Leader. His outsider standing in terms of the First Order military, his powers. There's just a lot still.]
[Kylo acknowledges the response with a hum, turning his gaze away slightly without moving his head. He knows that hate hasn't gone away, and likely won't ever, just because Hux simply can't take himself mentally out of the First Order and his ambitions. Kylo has abandoned nearly everything regarding their world, here, just because it's pointless to dwell on things he can't even remotely come close to accomplishing.]
[Kylo does have a point there. It is a bit surprising that he stayed after all that. Leaving would be the logical thing to do.]
...I didn't want to leave.
[Leave Kylo, leave the relationship. Because along with that hatred that only increased after Crait, coming back here and being slammed with two years of memories all at once... that was impossible to shake off. Hate is something that Hux easily feels, it can easily grow, but for him to feel something akin to affection-- attachment, that isn't nearly as common.
[He would have hated it, if Armitage had remained for any reason aside from wanting to. Not that he'd expect the man to do anything he didn't actually want to do for his own goals, whatever they might be, but... they've both changed considerably since they've been here. Ren isn't certain all of that change has been for the better, sometimes.]
[Sentimentality? Ridiculous. If Rae Sloane showed up and tried to get in his way, he'd have her killed too.]
If my feelings disappeared, I wouldn't have hesitated leaving you. And most likely killing you in the process. [He'll just casually throw that out there because well, Kylo wouldn't be surprised anyway. The man may be reckless, but he's not stupid.]
[Perhaps it would be less about sentimentality and more of... something else more selfish. Either way, it doesn't matter much. Armitage admitted he is attached, in his own way, and that's enough.
He barely bats an eye at the murder mention.]
I'd expect more than a few attempts out of you, if our feelings here weren't so different here.
[Time and resources are on his side here, sorta. Plus, Hux is at least somewhat certain that Kylo wouldn't try to kill him in return, so that's an advantage. Of course, there wouldn't be any point murdering him in the first place, given that no one stays dead here.]
[Kylo come back!! Hux starts to follow him, looking almost abashed by all this.]
What-- no, this topic just came up on its own! [Even though Hux stands by everything he just said, he doesn't want to let the conversation end like this.]
I wouldn't have gotten you food otherwise! And I assure you that it's not poisoned!
[Maybe a normal person would be insulted by that comment, but then again, a normal person wouldn't bring up murdering their partner on their anniversary. Hux just draws to his full height, his eyes narrowing at Kylo before looking straight at the food in his hands.
He just wants to prove himself here.]
I can prove it. I'll eat the whole thing if you don't want it anymore.
[Look he has some Doubts but he's not going to throw away a perfectly good meal. Stepping into the kitchen, he takes out a plate and a few utensils towards that end, but Armitage shouldn't expect a large portion. He can make dinner for the redhead afterwards.]
[Why are you so difficult, Kylo! Nevermind the fact that all of this is pretty much Hux's fault in the first place, no that's not the point at all. A part of him wants to add that if he actually poisoned the food, he wouldn't have said such a thing out loud, but he manages to keep that part to himself for once.
Look, it's progress. Sorta.]
...It's one of your favorites. [He says that part more quietly, because he does want Kylo to enjoy the food in the end. It's why Hux bothered at all.]
...I didn't have anything else planned. [Maybe that's unusual for Hux, but it's not like he's great at any of this and that's putting it nicely. There's a look of uncertainty that passes through him, but it doesn't last long.]
Did you want to do anything in particular? [It's not like this is their first anniversary, but it's their first one after Kylo and Rey got together. Does he expect something more now? Is he disappointed?]
[As evidenced by the fact that he'd... just been training. Any plans he would have made of that nature would take up enough of the day that he'd keep any training to the early morning at most.]
Hux won't lie and say that he's an easy person to please, but the uncertainty and doubt from earlier rears its ugly head when he sees how uninterested Kylo is in all this. So, he didn't try at all today. The day is unimportant to him, isn't it? That's why he just trained and behaved like it was just any other day.
Hux should've just tossed that food. Why did he bother--]
I'm sure you'd be planning all morning if it was your anniversary with that girl.
[Kylo frowns faintly as the uncomfortable topic arises, but not because he doesn't have responses to it. Rather, he knows it's... sensitive, and how easily the conversation could go poorly. On today of all days, it's the last thing he wants to happen.
So he tries to cut it off before it can go anywhere.]
Do you really want to talk about her on our anniversary?
[No, he doesn't want to talk about Rey right now, but Hux still wants to know. It doesn't matter what he wants, he wants to hear the truth from his partner.]
Unless you're planning on telling me that you'd just be training in the backyard if it was your anniversary with her.
[Hux does his best to stare coldly at Kylo, but there's an obvious desperation and hurt coming from him as well.]
[Ren resolutely avoids the topic of Rey entirely. She is not relevant in the context of their relationship, and he's sticking to that. What he has—had with Rey is different and separate. Instead, he turns to what he sees to be the actual topic. His tone remains patient, at least; he's not rising to any bait.]
You've hardly seemed interested in doing anything I've suggested in the past year, Armitage.
[He debates admitting that he didn't know if the general would even remember the date, but puts it aside for now.]
I was going to make your favorite for dinner. [He figured they'd just... have a nice evening in, since it's what Hux seems to actually like.] I still plan to.
[He's enjoyed some of the things he's done with Kylo, really! It's just a lot of his mood was dampened by the fact that Kylo was spending some of his time with that girl, instead of him. This was especially noticeable during festivals or events...]
Oh really? You're not just doing that because I brought you food? [For all he knows, Kylo just planned on doing his own thing the entire day.]
[Of course he wouldn't say such a thing even if it were true—which it isn't. He wonders how to remedy this, and though he half expects that Hux doesn't have an answer, he still asks.]
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Look, he's fine. Everything is fine. Who cares about a dumb anniversary!! The only anniversary that should be celebrated is when he finally takes over the galaxy.]
I just figured that you needed food, that's all. I know it may surprise you that I sometimes think of your personal well-being. [Kylo is no use beaten down anyway.]
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They both know what it's for, anyway, so he's just going to respond as if they've already acknowledged it.]
Did you ever think it would last this long?
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But Hux is unable to hide his flustered expression when Kylo just plainly acknowledges their anniversary. So, he did remember! Well, that's good-- wait, what does he mean by that exactly?!
...Not that Hux can blame him, not this time.]
No. [The general responds quietly, letting some of his more petty feelings fade.] Especially not after we both returned from Crait. I hated you.
[And of course, he still hates Kylo in some ways, that won't ever disappear. Not just for messing up on Crait, but for taking the role of Supreme Leader. His outsider standing in terms of the First Order military, his powers. There's just a lot still.]
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I'm surprised you decided to stay.
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...I didn't want to leave.
[Leave Kylo, leave the relationship. Because along with that hatred that only increased after Crait, coming back here and being slammed with two years of memories all at once... that was impossible to shake off. Hate is something that Hux easily feels, it can easily grow, but for him to feel something akin to affection-- attachment, that isn't nearly as common.
And it's been nice.]
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[He would have hated it, if Armitage had remained for any reason aside from wanting to. Not that he'd expect the man to do anything he didn't actually want to do for his own goals, whatever they might be, but... they've both changed considerably since they've been here. Ren isn't certain all of that change has been for the better, sometimes.]
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[Sentimentality? Ridiculous. If Rae Sloane showed up and tried to get in his way, he'd have her killed too.]
If my feelings disappeared, I wouldn't have hesitated leaving you. And most likely killing you in the process. [He'll just casually throw that out there because well, Kylo wouldn't be surprised anyway. The man may be reckless, but he's not stupid.]
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[Perhaps it would be less about sentimentality and more of... something else more selfish. Either way, it doesn't matter much. Armitage admitted he is attached, in his own way, and that's enough.
He barely bats an eye at the murder mention.]
I'd expect more than a few attempts out of you, if our feelings here weren't so different here.
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[Time and resources are on his side here, sorta. Plus, Hux is at least somewhat certain that Kylo wouldn't try to kill him in return, so that's an advantage. Of course, there wouldn't be any point murdering him in the first place, given that no one stays dead here.]
You can't possibly predict every method I'd use.
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Is this what you want to discuss on our anniversary?
[Way to ruin the mood, Armitage!!]
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What-- no, this topic just came up on its own! [Even though Hux stands by everything he just said, he doesn't want to let the conversation end like this.]
I wouldn't have gotten you food otherwise! And I assure you that it's not poisoned!
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[You didn't have to bring up death, you could have just left it at hypothetically leaving! God, Armitage, why does he even love you.]
I should make you prove it, after that.
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He just wants to prove himself here.]
I can prove it. I'll eat the whole thing if you don't want it anymore.
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[Look he has some Doubts but he's not going to throw away a perfectly good meal. Stepping into the kitchen, he takes out a plate and a few utensils towards that end, but Armitage shouldn't expect a large portion. He can make dinner for the redhead afterwards.]
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[Why are you so difficult, Kylo! Nevermind the fact that all of this is pretty much Hux's fault in the first place, no that's not the point at all. A part of him wants to add that if he actually poisoned the food, he wouldn't have said such a thing out loud, but he manages to keep that part to himself for once.
Look, it's progress. Sorta.]
...It's one of your favorites. [He says that part more quietly, because he does want Kylo to enjoy the food in the end. It's why Hux bothered at all.]
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I could tell. [There you go, Armitage. There's your acknowledgment.] Is there anything you wanted to do today?
[aside from plot hypothetical murder]
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...I didn't have anything else planned. [Maybe that's unusual for Hux, but it's not like he's great at any of this and that's putting it nicely. There's a look of uncertainty that passes through him, but it doesn't last long.]
Did you want to do anything in particular? [It's not like this is their first anniversary, but it's their first one after Kylo and Rey got together. Does he expect something more now? Is he disappointed?]
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[As evidenced by the fact that he'd... just been training. Any plans he would have made of that nature would take up enough of the day that he'd keep any training to the early morning at most.]
You can be difficult to please, sometimes.
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Hux won't lie and say that he's an easy person to please, but the uncertainty and doubt from earlier rears its ugly head when he sees how uninterested Kylo is in all this. So, he didn't try at all today. The day is unimportant to him, isn't it? That's why he just trained and behaved like it was just any other day.
Hux should've just tossed that food. Why did he bother--]
I'm sure you'd be planning all morning if it was your anniversary with that girl.
[It's super unhealthy defensive mode time.]
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So he tries to cut it off before it can go anywhere.]
Do you really want to talk about her on our anniversary?
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[No, he doesn't want to talk about Rey right now, but Hux still wants to know. It doesn't matter what he wants, he wants to hear the truth from his partner.]
Unless you're planning on telling me that you'd just be training in the backyard if it was your anniversary with her.
[Hux does his best to stare coldly at Kylo, but there's an obvious desperation and hurt coming from him as well.]
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You've hardly seemed interested in doing anything I've suggested in the past year, Armitage.
[He debates admitting that he didn't know if the general would even remember the date, but puts it aside for now.]
I was going to make your favorite for dinner. [He figured they'd just... have a nice evening in, since it's what Hux seems to actually like.] I still plan to.
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[He's enjoyed some of the things he's done with Kylo, really! It's just a lot of his mood was dampened by the fact that Kylo was spending some of his time with that girl, instead of him. This was especially noticeable during festivals or events...]
Oh really? You're not just doing that because I brought you food? [For all he knows, Kylo just planned on doing his own thing the entire day.]
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[Of course he wouldn't say such a thing even if it were true—which it isn't. He wonders how to remedy this, and though he half expects that Hux doesn't have an answer, he still asks.]
What do I need to do to assure you I still care?
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[Not that Hux is much better about that, but we're talking about Kylo here!! It's totally all on him.]
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