[He's enjoyed some of the things he's done with Kylo, really! It's just a lot of his mood was dampened by the fact that Kylo was spending some of his time with that girl, instead of him. This was especially noticeable during festivals or events...]
Oh really? You're not just doing that because I brought you food? [For all he knows, Kylo just planned on doing his own thing the entire day.]
[Of course he wouldn't say such a thing even if it were true—which it isn't. He wonders how to remedy this, and though he half expects that Hux doesn't have an answer, he still asks.]
[While Kylo certainly can have a certain level of patience, it's wearing thin at the accusations he sees as unfounded. He clenches his jaw, taking in a breath through his nose before replying.]
[He's forgotten the food on the counter by now, anyway. If Hux is going to be that way, though:]
I didn't even think you would remember it, much less put any value to it. Maybe if you would tell me what you want, I could actually manage to do that rather than wasting my time on something you have no interest in.
[Surprisingly, Hux becomes quiet after that. He just looks at Kylo for a few moments, any remaining anger gone from his expression. So, that's how it is.]
Why would you assume that I wouldn't remember?
[The food continues to rot, giving a stronger stench with each passing minute.]
...You honestly think that you matter so little to me?
[How could Kylo think something like that? Although, a small part of Hux wants to point out that he hasn't given much reason for him to think otherwise.
He decidedly refuses to give voice to that thought.]
[That goes without saying, so he doesn't bother to reply. He's always seen their relationship as a side note to Hux—significant enough to notice due to their proximity, occasionally enjoyable enough to engage in, but not exactly a priority. He's never expected much more than that.]
Because I still care about you despite all of that. I gave you my word.
[So, it's out of some sort of obligation, partly. Hux hates it and he's not sure why. This basically confirms that Kylo will stick by him no matter what, but it doesn't make him happy.
It's strange, Hux thought just owning Kylo in some manner would be enough, but it's not.]
It was foolish for me to believe that your feelings for me would continue. If you're only here out of some stupid duty or vow, then leave. I care nothing for that.
[Look how straight and neutral he's being. He's not shaking, especially not his hands. The hitch in his voice is completely imagined as well.]
[He is trying to be patient, by the Force he is. But Hux's constant questioning and doubting is making it difficult, and the smell of smoke fills the air despite his efforts.]
I just told you my feelings have stayed the same. Why are you so determined to believe otherwise?
[So Kylo is honestly saying that his feelings haven't changed at all? It's not out of some duty? Perhaps Hux misinterpreted what he was saying and he's just been blinded by his insecurities to see that. With a hard swallow, he looks away from the other man, and he doesn't look much better than before.
It's obvious that Kylo is getting upset too, judging by the smoke penetrating through the room. Normally he wouldn't care too much, but.]
I. ...It's nothing. [He's quiet now and much of his anger is slowly disappearing. Hux suddenly feels tired and he definitely doesn't want to talk about how inadequate he feels to his partner.] I'm sorry.
[It's a relief to have the topic end in such a way—it's tired Kylo out too, and he lets out a breath after the apology. The scent begins to dissipate, leaving a pleasant one rather than something suffocating.
Rather than expressing his acceptance in words, he steps forward to pull Armitage into an embrace, resting his head against the other man's. Hopefully they can move past this.]
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[He's enjoyed some of the things he's done with Kylo, really! It's just a lot of his mood was dampened by the fact that Kylo was spending some of his time with that girl, instead of him. This was especially noticeable during festivals or events...]
Oh really? You're not just doing that because I brought you food? [For all he knows, Kylo just planned on doing his own thing the entire day.]
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[Of course he wouldn't say such a thing even if it were true—which it isn't. He wonders how to remedy this, and though he half expects that Hux doesn't have an answer, he still asks.]
What do I need to do to assure you I still care?
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[Not that Hux is much better about that, but we're talking about Kylo here!! It's totally all on him.]
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Explain to me how I've implied that.
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[The food that Hux brought begins to smell, like it's rotting despite how fresh it should be.]
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I didn't even think you would remember it, much less put any value to it. Maybe if you would tell me what you want, I could actually manage to do that rather than wasting my time on something you have no interest in.
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Why would you assume that I wouldn't remember?
[The food continues to rot, giving a stronger stench with each passing minute.]
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Your disdain for me and everything I care about is obvious enough. Why would it mean anything to you?
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[How could Kylo think something like that? Although, a small part of Hux wants to point out that he hasn't given much reason for him to think otherwise.
He decidedly refuses to give voice to that thought.]
Then why are you still here?
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Because I still care about you despite all of that. I gave you my word.
[He said he wouldn't leave. He's not going to.]
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It's strange, Hux thought just owning Kylo in some manner would be enough, but it's not.]
It was foolish for me to believe that your feelings for me would continue. If you're only here out of some stupid duty or vow, then leave. I care nothing for that.
[Look how straight and neutral he's being. He's not shaking, especially not his hands. The hitch in his voice is completely imagined as well.]
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[He is trying to be patient, by the Force he is. But Hux's constant questioning and doubting is making it difficult, and the smell of smoke fills the air despite his efforts.]
I just told you my feelings have stayed the same. Why are you so determined to believe otherwise?
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It's obvious that Kylo is getting upset too, judging by the smoke penetrating through the room. Normally he wouldn't care too much, but.]
I. ...It's nothing. [He's quiet now and much of his anger is slowly disappearing. Hux suddenly feels tired and he definitely doesn't want to talk about how inadequate he feels to his partner.] I'm sorry.
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Rather than expressing his acceptance in words, he steps forward to pull Armitage into an embrace, resting his head against the other man's. Hopefully they can move past this.]