Kylo "Worst Disney Princess" Ren (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
lostapprentice) wrote2035-01-06 02:37 am
lostapprentice) wrote2035-01-06 02:37 am
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[He's still confused? Why? Rey doesn't understand, and she frowns for a moment. His insistence on being so thick about this would almost be frustrating if it wasn't also oddly... endearing, in a way.]
I don't exactly have people lining up to buy me lovely things. [She tilts her chin downward, raising her eyebrows to look at him with an expression that says she thought this fact ought to be fairly obvious.]
Nobody else is crazy enough to do that for a scavenger but you. I don't really have many other better possible dates to choose from. Maybe not any better ones.
I don't exactly have people lining up to buy me lovely things. [She tilts her chin downward, raising her eyebrows to look at him with an expression that says she thought this fact ought to be fairly obvious.]
Nobody else is crazy enough to do that for a scavenger but you. I don't really have many other better possible dates to choose from. Maybe not any better ones.
[As much as she thinks it's obvious, his brief look of confusion nearing surprise says otherwise. He supposes he's made another mistaken assumption about who exactly Rey is close to—but instead of a particular person, it's the number of people, and again he's underestimated how much...
No, he doesn't quite want to go there, out of fear of making a much more dangerous assumption. His gaze darts away as he tries to move away from his thoughts regarding that, attempting to regain his dignity.]
Empta 5, then.
[Because of course he remembers that day.]
No, he doesn't quite want to go there, out of fear of making a much more dangerous assumption. His gaze darts away as he tries to move away from his thoughts regarding that, attempting to regain his dignity.]
Empta 5, then.
[Because of course he remembers that day.]
[Yes, well obviously. Ren better not have other plans with someone else. For some reason, that possibility never crossed his mind even though it's... slightly plausible. It's not like his partner is popular around here!!
Not that Hux can talk.]
I cleared out my schedule for today, so you'll have time to think about it. [But don't think too hard, Kylo.]
Not that Hux can talk.]
I cleared out my schedule for today, so you'll have time to think about it. [But don't think too hard, Kylo.]
[Taking bites between responses, Ren is struggling between taking his time to enjoy the food and trying to get through it in order to do other things. For instance: presents. And also Hux's presence.]
I'll let you know as soon as I think of something.
[He gestures for Hux to hurry over with his coffee and sit nearby, impatient to at least have his partner close by. Though if Armitage wants to pick up a gift for Kylo to open at the table, he won't argue.]
I'll let you know as soon as I think of something.
[He gestures for Hux to hurry over with his coffee and sit nearby, impatient to at least have his partner close by. Though if Armitage wants to pick up a gift for Kylo to open at the table, he won't argue.]
[He remembers the day? Rey's face brightens and with it the whole room.]
Empta 5. [She has a birthday. A fake birthday. But a birthday! It's a little bit exciting even if it's pretend.
But her celebration is short-lived, when she realizes he's not nearly so cheerful. Rather, Kylo seems confused and embarrassed, and she isn't sure why. Rey nearly reaches for the hand closest to hers, but decides against it. She does, however, lean over to try and get more in his eyeline now that he's turned his gaze away.]
Unless you'd rather I didn't pick that one. You seem surprised I did, and I don't know why.
Empta 5. [She has a birthday. A fake birthday. But a birthday! It's a little bit exciting even if it's pretend.
But her celebration is short-lived, when she realizes he's not nearly so cheerful. Rather, Kylo seems confused and embarrassed, and she isn't sure why. Rey nearly reaches for the hand closest to hers, but decides against it. She does, however, lean over to try and get more in his eyeline now that he's turned his gaze away.]
Unless you'd rather I didn't pick that one. You seem surprised I did, and I don't know why.
[Ren shakes his head to deny the idea that he has much of a right to decide such a thing for her, turning his attention back to her as she leans towards him.]
It's your decision. [Even if he appreciates the fact that she... apparently wants to take his opinion into account.]
I just thought you'd have others that meant more to you.
It's your decision. [Even if he appreciates the fact that she... apparently wants to take his opinion into account.]
I just thought you'd have others that meant more to you.
[She leans back again to her normal position as soon as she regains his attention, looking at him with confusion of her own, as well as a bit of concern. Does Kylo really not understand what he means to her? She thought that would've been pretty clear by now.
This time Rey does take his hand, setting her own solidly on top of his much larger one. She furrows her brow at him and leans forward slightly to make sure her next words come out as insistent and earnest as she intends them to.]
You mean plenty.
This time Rey does take his hand, setting her own solidly on top of his much larger one. She furrows her brow at him and leans forward slightly to make sure her next words come out as insistent and earnest as she intends them to.]
You mean plenty.
[There's something in his eyes that softens at her reassurance, but there's still some clear uncertainty in his expression as he swallows.
He lets out a nervous chuckle, glancing at their hands and then the box.]
I suppose that should be obvious by now, shouldn't it?
[He still has a hard time believing it. It's in his nature to assume no one truly thinks much of him, that he always has to prove himself. He's always searching for those indications that his paranoia is right.]
He lets out a nervous chuckle, glancing at their hands and then the box.]
I suppose that should be obvious by now, shouldn't it?
[He still has a hard time believing it. It's in his nature to assume no one truly thinks much of him, that he always has to prove himself. He's always searching for those indications that his paranoia is right.]
You're right. It should be.
[Her mouth quirks upward to make it clear she's (mostly) teasing. But she still doesn't take her hand off his or move her eyes from his face. He still seems unsure, after all, and that's simply not acceptable. Not after everything that's happened between them.]
But clearly it's not. So what do I have to do to make it obvious to you?
[Her mouth quirks upward to make it clear she's (mostly) teasing. But she still doesn't take her hand off his or move her eyes from his face. He still seems unsure, after all, and that's simply not acceptable. Not after everything that's happened between them.]
But clearly it's not. So what do I have to do to make it obvious to you?
[Kylo is quick to dismiss the idea.]
That's not necessary.
[What's more overt than so many gifts? What's more overt than wanting her birthday to be a day she remembers him? He honestly sees that she's done basically everything she logically should to make him believe it, and the problem isn't with her words or actions. It's him, and he's aware of that.]
You've already done plenty.
That's not necessary.
[What's more overt than so many gifts? What's more overt than wanting her birthday to be a day she remembers him? He honestly sees that she's done basically everything she logically should to make him believe it, and the problem isn't with her words or actions. It's him, and he's aware of that.]
You've already done plenty.
[Rey clearly isn't convinced. But Kylo also isn't exactly offering anything helpful, nor does he seem to be as uncertain as before, so she finally leans back and, a few seconds later, removes her hand from his.]
Not enough. [She huffs to show her dissatisfaction.] I'll think of something. You'll see.
Not enough. [She huffs to show her dissatisfaction.] I'll think of something. You'll see.
[His hand twitches on the table when she pulls away, as does his mouth, but he stays where he is without any other movement.
He can see she's not giving it up, so he sees little point in trying to argue about this particular issue, shaking his head to express his exasperation.]
If you insist.
He can see she's not giving it up, so he sees little point in trying to argue about this particular issue, shaking his head to express his exasperation.]
If you insist.
[She catches that subtle twitch of his hand out of the corner of her eye and wonders if she shouldn't have pulled her hand away. He's odd about that sort of thing, she's noticed. Physical contact. Sometimes he's clearly uncomfortable with it and looks glad to have it over with. Other times he seems almost starved for it, and part of her aches to have taken it away.
But returning her hand to his now would be weird. At the very least, it would draw attention to his twitches and therefore what she's sure he would consider weakness.
So instead she moves forward and out of her chair to give him a hug. It's awkward, with his body still tilted sideways and him still seated while she bends over just a bit—even seated he's absurdly tall—but Rey is an accomplished hugger by this point, and she manages to make it work. For now she'll keep her arms loosely around his neck and tuck her chin against the top of his hair. With any luck, since she's reminded him of the day he gave her that pin, she can get a hug returned this time, though she's not counting on it.]
I insist.
But returning her hand to his now would be weird. At the very least, it would draw attention to his twitches and therefore what she's sure he would consider weakness.
So instead she moves forward and out of her chair to give him a hug. It's awkward, with his body still tilted sideways and him still seated while she bends over just a bit—even seated he's absurdly tall—but Rey is an accomplished hugger by this point, and she manages to make it work. For now she'll keep her arms loosely around his neck and tuck her chin against the top of his hair. With any luck, since she's reminded him of the day he gave her that pin, she can get a hug returned this time, though she's not counting on it.]
I insist.
[The position she essentially drags him into is certainly awkward, to be sure—but he doesn't even think about resisting it at this point, considering how ridiculous it would be. For him to refuse it now, after everything they've just talked about... there's really no point.
So he does return it, as best he can; he has to shuffle sideways to get both his arms around her, resting his head against her chest. Still, he can't resist a bit of grumbling thanks to the discomfort.]
You're not making this easy.
So he does return it, as best he can; he has to shuffle sideways to get both his arms around her, resting his head against her chest. Still, he can't resist a bit of grumbling thanks to the discomfort.]
You're not making this easy.
[With his head on her chest, he'll likely be able to feel her light chuckle at his complaint.]
I'm open to suggestions.
[She grumbled about him in a similar way on that day a year ago, so she'll allow him his grumpiness, particularly since it comes with a returned hug. It's the first one she's gotten from him since then, not counting the time when Elios interfered, and the room fills up with soft sunlight as a result. And now that she's not distracted by the confusion of memories trying to sort themselves out in her brain, she can properly enjoy it this time.]
I'm open to suggestions.
[She grumbled about him in a similar way on that day a year ago, so she'll allow him his grumpiness, particularly since it comes with a returned hug. It's the first one she's gotten from him since then, not counting the time when Elios interfered, and the room fills up with soft sunlight as a result. And now that she's not distracted by the confusion of memories trying to sort themselves out in her brain, she can properly enjoy it this time.]
[As odd and unfortunate as the positioning is, it doesn't really matter, does it. For all the times they've shared any kind of affection, he thinks this is the first time she's initiated an embrace without any prompting.
He constantly deals with discomfort intentionally, anyway.]
... It's fine.
[It's weakness, comes the usual thought, that he allows this, that he reciprocates it, that he even allows himself to enjoy such frivolous things as a birthday or gifts. But it's here, and he can't stop himself, and the soft garden that's emerged from the floor only shows a few bits of frost in response to his doubts. It's easy enough to miss.]
He constantly deals with discomfort intentionally, anyway.]
... It's fine.
[It's weakness, comes the usual thought, that he allows this, that he reciprocates it, that he even allows himself to enjoy such frivolous things as a birthday or gifts. But it's here, and he can't stop himself, and the soft garden that's emerged from the floor only shows a few bits of frost in response to his doubts. It's easy enough to miss.]
[Rey can't see the frost or really even what plants he's growing this time, not when her attention is occupied by fluffy dark hair and warm arms. But the sunshine in the room is enough to melt away all but the most stubborn of icy patches, so she really doesn't need to pay attention.]
If you say so.
[She sighs and without thinking tilts her face downward to rest her cheek against the top of his head, her breath blowing in his hair when she speaks.]
It's not bad from my perspective, at least.
If you say so.
[She sighs and without thinking tilts her face downward to rest her cheek against the top of his head, her breath blowing in his hair when she speaks.]
It's not bad from my perspective, at least.
[He stares out the back doors, trying not to think terribly hard about the warmth that shouldn't really be reaching this far into the room, or the amount of comfort this position gives him despite what he's said aloud. The easiest thing is to bring attention to his more standoffish nature.]
You also tend to like this more than I do.
[He doesn't really think about any of the implications that might come with those words aside from what he actually means, which is that Rey is more of the hugging type than he is and seems to be a bit less picky than he is when it comes to who gets those. In trying to balance the positivity, he may have tilted it a bit far in the other direction.
... still, it's not like he's moving.]
You also tend to like this more than I do.
[He doesn't really think about any of the implications that might come with those words aside from what he actually means, which is that Rey is more of the hugging type than he is and seems to be a bit less picky than he is when it comes to who gets those. In trying to balance the positivity, he may have tilted it a bit far in the other direction.
... still, it's not like he's moving.]
{Hux eventually sits down across from Ren and places his carefully prepared coffee onto the table as he watches him eat. He's very aware by now that Kylo truly appreciates what he got for him, but this sort of thing is still new and kinda awkward to him. He really doesn't know how to behave or act now, so he just drinks his coffee until Ren says something.
...
He already said happy birthday. Check. Gave the breakfast. Check. Showed the gifts. Check.]
...
He already said happy birthday. Check. Gave the breakfast. Check. Showed the gifts. Check.]
[Even as he eats, he keeps his eyes on Hux, looking at him like he's the most interesting and wonderful thing in the galaxy.]
I didn't even think you'd remember.
[what do you mean low standards]
I didn't even think you'd remember.
[what do you mean low standards]
[Leia stumbles as she's shoved away, thrown off balance by Kylo's extreme reaction. There's the briefest flashes of fear in her expression as the floorboards creak, but it's quickly replaced with a determined resolve to, well, do the exact opposite as long as she can. Part of her knows she's risking her safety again, but for Ben's sake, she doesn't mind it.]
I'm not leaving you.
[She'd tell him, again, it wasn't his fault, but she doubts it'd be any help at this point.]
I don't want you to be alone.
I'm not leaving you.
[She'd tell him, again, it wasn't his fault, but she doubts it'd be any help at this point.]
I don't want you to be alone.
[He knows it's pointless to argue with her.
Shaking, he suddenly steps forward and takes her by the throat, his boots and the floor behind him frosting over, and begins to drag her towards the door.
But even as he does it, and as terrible as he intends to be to her to make her reject him, he can't make himself apply any more pressure than is necessary to keep his grip on her. That's even aside from the fact that his hand is trembling as much as the rest of him and the stricken edge to his furious expression.]
Shaking, he suddenly steps forward and takes her by the throat, his boots and the floor behind him frosting over, and begins to drag her towards the door.
But even as he does it, and as terrible as he intends to be to her to make her reject him, he can't make himself apply any more pressure than is necessary to keep his grip on her. That's even aside from the fact that his hand is trembling as much as the rest of him and the stricken edge to his furious expression.]
Edited (i'm an idiot) 2017-12-18 02:09 (UTC)
[Fortunately, the more negative implications slip entirely past Rey.]
I've noticed. This is only the second hug I've gotten from you, you know.
[She's perfectly aware he's not as fond of hugs as she is. And clearly, the fact that she's won another coveted Kylo Hug is enough to keep her mood from dropping even with his grumblings. He isn't moving away, and he still has his arms around her, and those are the things she considers most important.]
I wish you'd give more. You're not bad at them, when you aren't complaining.
I've noticed. This is only the second hug I've gotten from you, you know.
[She's perfectly aware he's not as fond of hugs as she is. And clearly, the fact that she's won another coveted Kylo Hug is enough to keep her mood from dropping even with his grumblings. He isn't moving away, and he still has his arms around her, and those are the things she considers most important.]
I wish you'd give more. You're not bad at them, when you aren't complaining.
[It's a look that he's seen before, although not too often. But whenever that expression is directed towards him, he feels something warm develop in his own chest, a feeling that he didn't experience before getting into this relationship with Ren.
...Although, that feeling quickly goes away when he hears that comment, a frown quickly forming. What's that supposed to mean?! Way to ruin the moment, Kylo!!]
Of course I remember! You think I'm incapable of memorizing something as simple as that?!
...Although, that feeling quickly goes away when he hears that comment, a frown quickly forming. What's that supposed to mean?! Way to ruin the moment, Kylo!!]
Of course I remember! You think I'm incapable of memorizing something as simple as that?!
[Even this isn't enough to really put a damper on Kylo's mood, and the most he does his tilt his head, a bit of concern replacing the fondness.]
Of course I know you can, it was a matter of if you would. You've told me birthdays mean nothing to you.
[He didn't expect that Hux would put in the effort to remember.]
Of course I know you can, it was a matter of if you would. You've told me birthdays mean nothing to you.
[He didn't expect that Hux would put in the effort to remember.]
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