[He doesn't even have to question that. A while back, right after that flower festival, before the mess with the murder ever happened... some had feelings forced onto or taken from them, and for Ren it was the latter. He welcomed it then, as well.]
To be able to stop caring... it's something I've wanted for long time.
[Hux never thought that Ren wanted to feel nothing, to stop caring about the world around him. It's not something Hux can really understand, as he doesn't want to be apathetic to what's happening around him.
He still doesn't pull away though.]
Why's that? Your actions pertaining to the First Order never led me to reach this conclusion.
I've always cared too much about things I shouldn't feel anything for. [He shifts a little, some of his hair falling over his face.] It's a weakness of mine that Supreme Leader is already aware of.
[It's another way he's following in his grandfather's footsteps, he supposes, as much as he'd like to avoid Darth Vader's final mistake.]
[Ren cares too much? If he heard him say such a thing a year ago, Hux would've laughed. But. He can see it now and it's not like Ren would lie about that. He's not the type to fool people in that way.
The general briefly wonders if he falls into that description. It's probably for the best if he doesn't think about it.]
Falling completely into apathy isn't the solution to that.
[He knows he can't simply stop feeling and continue to live his life like that. There are still thinks he wants aside from that, things he can't have if he feels nothing, and that's true both on this planet and in their own galaxy. But as a brief reprieve, he can't resist the idea.]
[Talking about feelings was never one of Hux's strengths.]
...No, I suppose not. [Should he just acknowledge what Ren has said? There's a small amount of confusion coming from the general, apparent enough for Ren to sense.]
If you're unable to stop caring about various things, then you'll just have to find other solutions. Perhaps make it tolerable. [Not that Hux has this sort of problem because he's an asshole.]
[This place has taught him just how much he's powered by conflict, both by inflicting things upon him here and making him reflect on things from their galaxy. Ren brings a hand over his face, letting out a sigh and regretting even bringing this up at all.]
[For some reason, the dismissal frustrates Hux. The reasonable thing for him to do is just let this topic drop, but it would feel like his effort to try and help was a complete waste of everyone's time. That thought doesn't sit well with him, even though he's more than aware of his inadequacies in this particular subject.
Maybe he just dislikes being inadequate in anything. Or maybe it's just because Rne is involved.]
[Kylo finally sits up and looks at the other man properly, a faint frown on his lips as he watches Armitage for a moment. He shakes his head slightly before he responds, turning his gaze away as if to avoid the topic.]
Fine... but I don't want to talk about it.
[The shadows start to revert to their normal intensity, at least; he is a bit heartened by Hux wanting to fix this somehow, even if it might not necessarily be for Kylo's sake alone. Out of everything, he's the thing that's helped Ren's life be more bearable here.]
[Fine, Hux doesn't need to listen to this anymore. He understands the issue at hand and as long Ren knows that he's not forgetting about this, then that will just have to suffice for now. Besides, there's only so much he can tolerate this sort of talk before losing his patience.
At least the shadows have lessened a bit, so Hux was slightly successful. That's the most important thing here.]
For now, you should be spending more time on more important matters, like making me food. [Is Hux joking? Who knows.]
[Ren, at least, decides to take it as one, and he lets out a brief huff of breath through his nose as an approximate laugh. He sets his chin against his hand and his elbow against his knee, raising his eyebrows even though he's still a bit tired emotionally.]
I'm the one who's injured. Shouldn't you be making me things?
[He can't stop himself from grabbing Ren's arm, wanting to make sure that he doesn't get up on his feet again despite what he just said. Look, Hux was just trying to make a point here!!]
Sit down you enormous idiot. You're not reopening your injury after I spent the last half hour being your medical droid.
It's not my fault you're sending mixed signals, Armitage. [He's openly amused now, a slight smile on his face as he sits back to reassure the other man. There's a clear fondness there, too, in the way he's tilting his head and facing Hux.]
Use the Force, that's always your favorite way to accomplish tasks. You won't need to stand up and you'll be training your mastery of the Force by making me food.
[See, a completely logical reason why he suggested this.]
[Ren comes just short of rolling his eyes, but he does shake his head at the suggestion.]
I'm not using the Force for something as mundane as making dinner. It would be an insult to my training.
[The Force is Important. Using it for anything less than important would be blasphemy, and Ren is certainly devout enough to consider that unacceptable.]
[Kylo puts his free hand on the other man's opposite shoulder, seemingly casual as he replies. Making dinner for Hux isn't exactly a chore, so he's not bothered by the strange insistence.]
You were right that I wouldn't let this stop me from doing things, you know. You telling me to sit is the only thing keeping me from it.
Telling me that I'm right and admitting that you're following my orders in one sentence? Today won't be forgotten.
[The words have no real bite, however, and Hux can't stop himself from leaning against Ren's shoulder. A small and weak part of him wants this and it has nothing to do with Hux trying to control his co-commander.
[Ren has to chuckle, though he attempts to suppress the smile on his face as Hux leans closer.]
It is more convenient to have you in an agreeable mood. [Not to mention their banter is a helpful distraction from the fact that Ren can't do the training he'd like, or from thoughts about what happened on the surface. Instead of focusing on those, he brushes his hand over Hux's hair, enjoying their proximity.]
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[He doesn't even have to question that. A while back, right after that flower festival, before the mess with the murder ever happened... some had feelings forced onto or taken from them, and for Ren it was the latter. He welcomed it then, as well.]
To be able to stop caring... it's something I've wanted for long time.
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He still doesn't pull away though.]
Why's that? Your actions pertaining to the First Order never led me to reach this conclusion.
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[It's another way he's following in his grandfather's footsteps, he supposes, as much as he'd like to avoid Darth Vader's final mistake.]
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The general briefly wonders if he falls into that description. It's probably for the best if he doesn't think about it.]
Falling completely into apathy isn't the solution to that.
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[He knows he can't simply stop feeling and continue to live his life like that. There are still thinks he wants aside from that, things he can't have if he feels nothing, and that's true both on this planet and in their own galaxy. But as a brief reprieve, he can't resist the idea.]
It doesn't change how I feel.
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...No, I suppose not. [Should he just acknowledge what Ren has said? There's a small amount of confusion coming from the general, apparent enough for Ren to sense.]
If you're unable to stop caring about various things, then you'll just have to find other solutions. Perhaps make it tolerable. [Not that Hux has this sort of problem because he's an asshole.]
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[This place has taught him just how much he's powered by conflict, both by inflicting things upon him here and making him reflect on things from their galaxy. Ren brings a hand over his face, letting out a sigh and regretting even bringing this up at all.]
... forget it. Forget I said anything.
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Maybe he just dislikes being inadequate in anything. Or maybe it's just because Rne is involved.]
No, I'm not going to.
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Fine... but I don't want to talk about it.
[The shadows start to revert to their normal intensity, at least; he is a bit heartened by Hux wanting to fix this somehow, even if it might not necessarily be for Kylo's sake alone. Out of everything, he's the thing that's helped Ren's life be more bearable here.]
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At least the shadows have lessened a bit, so Hux was slightly successful. That's the most important thing here.]
For now, you should be spending more time on more important matters, like making me food. [Is Hux joking? Who knows.]
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I'm the one who's injured. Shouldn't you be making me things?
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[Hux gives Ren a pointed stare.]
I seem to recall a recent incident where you trained despite having an injured leg. [Besides, Ren is the housewife between the two of them.]
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[Ren leans forward, almost as if he's preparing to stand up. Maybe he is, maybe he isn't. Maybe it depends on how Hux reacts.]
That was easier than I thought.
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Sit down you enormous idiot. You're not reopening your injury after I spent the last half hour being your medical droid.
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Use the Force, that's always your favorite way to accomplish tasks. You won't need to stand up and you'll be training your mastery of the Force by making me food.
[See, a completely logical reason why he suggested this.]
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I'm not using the Force for something as mundane as making dinner. It would be an insult to my training.
[The Force is Important. Using it for anything less than important would be blasphemy, and Ren is certainly devout enough to consider that unacceptable.]
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[Aren't lightsabers supposed to be sacred as well? Kylo never hesitated to smash various pieces of equipment with that blasted thing.]
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Of course I do. Unlike you, I take the Force very seriously.
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And you don't consider making me food to be a very serious matter?
[Now Hux is curious if he can convince Ren to make him food by using something that he takes very seriously.]
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[You can't have it both ways, Hux.]
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Humph, but you still owe me for this. [Seems like he can't convince Ren, but he wants to have the last word in somehow.]
Once you're healed, I intend to take that IOU.
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You were right that I wouldn't let this stop me from doing things, you know. You telling me to sit is the only thing keeping me from it.
[You brought this on yourself! Clearly.]
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[The words have no real bite, however, and Hux can't stop himself from leaning against Ren's shoulder. A small
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It is more convenient to have you in an agreeable mood. [Not to mention their banter is a helpful distraction from the fact that Ren can't do the training he'd like, or from thoughts about what happened on the surface. Instead of focusing on those, he brushes his hand over Hux's hair, enjoying their proximity.]
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