Kylo "Worst Disney Princess" Ren (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
lostapprentice) wrote2035-01-06 02:37 am
lostapprentice) wrote2035-01-06 02:37 am
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[Where is he?
The pathetic form of Kylo Ren that was just a few feet away from him is nowhere in sight. Instead, there's just a bed and basic furniture, everything tidy and calm with no stormtroopers surrounding him. Obviously, he's not on Crait, he's not in the Resistance's 'last' stronghold (even though they escaped, again).
Just where is--
He closes his hand around something and notices a strange crystal filled with liquid, no, emotion drops. Empatheais.
Suddenly, almost two years of memories instantaneously slice into his mind and Hux screams. Partly out of genuine pain, but mostly because he remembers now. He remembers this planet, this city, this house... his close relationship with the man that he wanted to murder just a few seconds ago. It's not often he calls situations overwhelming, but there's truly no other way to describe this.
Along with the cold hatred resonating from Kylo's room is distress as Hux buries one hand into his head.]
The pathetic form of Kylo Ren that was just a few feet away from him is nowhere in sight. Instead, there's just a bed and basic furniture, everything tidy and calm with no stormtroopers surrounding him. Obviously, he's not on Crait, he's not in the Resistance's 'last' stronghold (even though they escaped, again).
Just where is--
He closes his hand around something and notices a strange crystal filled with liquid, no, emotion drops. Empatheais.
Suddenly, almost two years of memories instantaneously slice into his mind and Hux screams. Partly out of genuine pain, but mostly because he remembers now. He remembers this planet, this city, this house... his close relationship with the man that he wanted to murder just a few seconds ago. It's not often he calls situations overwhelming, but there's truly no other way to describe this.
Along with the cold hatred resonating from Kylo's room is distress as Hux buries one hand into his head.]
[That pang of sudden negativity catches Kylo off guard enough that he cracks a few shower tiles in shock, and his head whips towards the source. He stands there under the shower in a moment of disbelief, but then hastily turns off the water and snatches Hux's bathrobe off the door, merely wanting something to cover up with that won't get in the way.
A moment later, the bathroom door opens, Kylo's chest heaving with anxious breaths. There's a distinct look of worry in his eye when he spots his partner, curled up in apparent pain.]
Armitage.
[He starts striding forward without any thoughts of needing to keep his distance or the fact that he's still dripping wet.]
A moment later, the bathroom door opens, Kylo's chest heaving with anxious breaths. There's a distinct look of worry in his eye when he spots his partner, curled up in apparent pain.]
Armitage.
[He starts striding forward without any thoughts of needing to keep his distance or the fact that he's still dripping wet.]
[It says a lot that Hux doesn't even notice Kylo until he hears his name being called-- and not just 'general' or 'Hux', but his actual first name. He looks up sharply to glare at his rival (partner??? Supreme Leader?), but he doesn't move his hand away from his head, still suffering from the memories.]
D-don't come any closer.
[He feels and looks miserable and his side still aches from when Kylo shoved him in the command shuttle. It's difficult to compare that man to the one standing just a few feet from him, wearing his bathrobe and obviously concerned over his well-being.
It's not right. It doesn't make sense.
Especially since he remembers Kylo saying that he loves him multiple times here.]
D-don't come any closer.
[He feels and looks miserable and his side still aches from when Kylo shoved him in the command shuttle. It's difficult to compare that man to the one standing just a few feet from him, wearing his bathrobe and obviously concerned over his well-being.
It's not right. It doesn't make sense.
Especially since he remembers Kylo saying that he loves him multiple times here.]
[He stops as requested, even if he sways on his feet a bit hesitantly like he still wants to keep going. His jaw set, Kylo swallows and has to wonder what it is he's remembering.
He has to try something, though.]
You're fine. It'll get easier.
[It had for him. Granted... a large part of that was because he at least had Armitage to rely on, and Kylo hopes the other man will let him return the favor. He holds his hands out in front of him, palms up, as if to beckon Hux towards him or plead with him.]
I want to help you.
He has to try something, though.]
You're fine. It'll get easier.
[It had for him. Granted... a large part of that was because he at least had Armitage to rely on, and Kylo hopes the other man will let him return the favor. He holds his hands out in front of him, palms up, as if to beckon Hux towards him or plead with him.]
I want to help you.
S-Shut up!
[It's uncommon for Hux to shout something like that. He's usually a bit more eloquent, at least, that's what he believes. Nonetheless, that's the only thing that he's capable of saying at the moment. He's stressed, confused, and still unable to accept the fact that Kylo Ren and him had a relationship here. Not just any relationship either, one that was built on trust and care.
How did he develop such feelings for the man that he loathes back home? Well, he actually knows the answer to that, but it's still difficult to understand. It's about as difficult as comprehending the fact that Kylo wants to help him now, instead of just shoving him aside.]
Why.
[He pulls his hand away, as his headache has disappeared now. But Hux is still on edge, looking ready to either pull his blaster or just collapse.]
[It's uncommon for Hux to shout something like that. He's usually a bit more eloquent, at least, that's what he believes. Nonetheless, that's the only thing that he's capable of saying at the moment. He's stressed, confused, and still unable to accept the fact that Kylo Ren and him had a relationship here. Not just any relationship either, one that was built on trust and care.
How did he develop such feelings for the man that he loathes back home? Well, he actually knows the answer to that, but it's still difficult to understand. It's about as difficult as comprehending the fact that Kylo wants to help him now, instead of just shoving him aside.]
Why.
[He pulls his hand away, as his headache has disappeared now. But Hux is still on edge, looking ready to either pull his blaster or just collapse.]
[Pressing his lips together, Ren returns his hands to his sides. Still, there's a look of determination in his eyes that says he won't be turned away or ignored so easily, only further indicated by the soft but insistent tone behind his words.]
You know why.
You know why.
We hate each other!
[That's how things are between them; it's what they are going to return to. No memories of Verens remained when he went back to their galaxy and he has no reason to think that will change in the future.]
Or are you going to honestly tell me that you still love me? [His voice takes on a mocking tone, but his posture is tense. His hands are clenched tightly and there's a wave of uncertainty and fear coming from Hux that he's unable to push back entirely.]
[That's how things are between them; it's what they are going to return to. No memories of Verens remained when he went back to their galaxy and he has no reason to think that will change in the future.]
Or are you going to honestly tell me that you still love me? [His voice takes on a mocking tone, but his posture is tense. His hands are clenched tightly and there's a wave of uncertainty and fear coming from Hux that he's unable to push back entirely.]
Maybe there we do.
[Honestly the most he feels for Hux in their galaxy is disdain and annoyance. Hate is too strong a word to even apply to him most of the time, but here? Things are vastly different. He intends to embrace that difference, because in his eyes it's the only chance he has at something nice.]
Yes, I am. Because I do love you, and this—[he holds his left hand up, showing the red ring there]—means something to me.
[Whether it means something to the other man... Kylo already had his doubts, but they've increased tenfold with the general's trip home.]
[Honestly the most he feels for Hux in their galaxy is disdain and annoyance. Hate is too strong a word to even apply to him most of the time, but here? Things are vastly different. He intends to embrace that difference, because in his eyes it's the only chance he has at something nice.]
Yes, I am. Because I do love you, and this—[he holds his left hand up, showing the red ring there]—means something to me.
[Whether it means something to the other man... Kylo already had his doubts, but they've increased tenfold with the general's trip home.]
[Some of that rising hate falters and diminishes when he hears those words once more. As much as he tries to deny it, that sentiment makes his chest tighten, hoping that Kylo means every part of it. Before returning to their galaxy, Hux didn't doubt him for a second; he knew the knight meant them. But the person standing before him now isn't just that knight anymore-- he's also the Supreme Leader.
...But Supreme Leader Kylo Ren is still wearing that ring. When he first came back not too long ago, he was frantic about it. He almost cried when Hux returned the ring to him. So, that means... he should logically know that those feelings haven't just disappeared--]
You're still wearing that?
[He looks down at the ring on his hand, adjusting it and moving it along his finger before leaving it alone. Even though he should just take it off and throw it away, the thought of losing it is not something he is ready to accept.]
...But Supreme Leader Kylo Ren is still wearing that ring. When he first came back not too long ago, he was frantic about it. He almost cried when Hux returned the ring to him. So, that means... he should logically know that those feelings haven't just disappeared--]
You're still wearing that?
[He looks down at the ring on his hand, adjusting it and moving it along his finger before leaving it alone. Even though he should just take it off and throw it away, the thought of losing it is not something he is ready to accept.]
[His words and gestures seem to actually have some effect, and for that he feels enough relief for a few leafy plants to sprout from the floorboards.]
I never want to take it off.
[The fact that he wore it into the shower should be evidence enough of that, he hopes. He returns his hand to his side and ventures a few more slow steps forward, and when he speaks again, his voice is quiet, almost timid. He doesn't want to push Hux right back into dealing with all of the emotions that come with mixing the two worlds, but...]
Did you mean it, when you said yes?
I never want to take it off.
[The fact that he wore it into the shower should be evidence enough of that, he hopes. He returns his hand to his side and ventures a few more slow steps forward, and when he speaks again, his voice is quiet, almost timid. He doesn't want to push Hux right back into dealing with all of the emotions that come with mixing the two worlds, but...]
Did you mean it, when you said yes?
Edited 2018-02-08 07:31 (UTC)
[Seeing that Ren even showered with the ring, Hux doesn't doubt his words. And for all his faults, he's not the type to lie about something like this. Oh, he definitely doubts the fact that the scavenger killed Snoke on her own, but that's an entirely different matter. Honestly, he should be focusing on that and Kylo's failure on Crait, but for some reason, those topics just aren't on the forefront of his mind.
He blames the memories. He blames this forsaken planet. He blames Elios for making him weak like this.
Building from that familiar hatred, Hux glares at Kylo.]
I don't have to answer you.
He blames the memories. He blames this forsaken planet. He blames Elios for making him weak like this.
Building from that familiar hatred, Hux glares at Kylo.]
I don't have to answer you.
[A brief look of hurt crosses Kylo's face, his mouth opening slightly, but he shakes his head as if to dismiss it. His feelings are unimportant.]
No. You don't.
[He won't demand answers from Armitage, as much as he might want them, even if he technically has the authority to. His gaze moves elsewhere, and though he doesn't know exactly when Hux has been retrieved from, he can sense his ire well enough.]
You must be angry with me.
No. You don't.
[He won't demand answers from Armitage, as much as he might want them, even if he technically has the authority to. His gaze moves elsewhere, and though he doesn't know exactly when Hux has been retrieved from, he can sense his ire well enough.]
You must be angry with me.
[The fact that Kylo just let that slide instead of demanding answers, instead of using the Force on him probably speaks volumes on how different their dynamic is here. While Hux is not ready to accept all of his feelings, he can at least admit that their relationship is nowhere near the same while in Verens.
And Kylo bringing up his anger definitely helps him to focus on that, finally able to push away his sentiment so that he can yell at the idiot.]
Considering that your ineptitude as a leader led to the Resistance escaping once again, anger covers only a small percentage of my feelings for you!
And Kylo bringing up his anger definitely helps him to focus on that, finally able to push away his sentiment so that he can yell at the idiot.]
Considering that your ineptitude as a leader led to the Resistance escaping once again, anger covers only a small percentage of my feelings for you!
[He drops his gaze when Armitage brings up his failures on Crait, the feeling of guilt and failure coming to the forefront of his mind. It's enough to dust some of the room with the same salt crystals that had been on that planet.]
I was— [His instinct is to defend himself, but he cuts himself short, working his jaw before continuing in a different way. Hux is right. He let his feelings get the better of him, as always.]
I wasn't thinking clearly.
I was— [His instinct is to defend himself, but he cuts himself short, working his jaw before continuing in a different way. Hux is right. He let his feelings get the better of him, as always.]
I wasn't thinking clearly.
[Even though Kylo is admitting to his faults now, it doesn't lessen Hux's ire. In fact, he seems even angrier for some reason.]
That's not an excuse! We were so close to victory, so close in bringing stability to our galaxy! And you botched it all up because of your personal grudge against Skywalker!!
[He tried to warn him and all Kylo did was toss him into the wall. Hux's hands clench into fists as the air around them begins to cool.]
The Resistance is supposed to be gone, finally wiped out! And now they have a chance to regroup once more! Do you not understand anything about the war we're in?!
That's not an excuse! We were so close to victory, so close in bringing stability to our galaxy! And you botched it all up because of your personal grudge against Skywalker!!
[He tried to warn him and all Kylo did was toss him into the wall. Hux's hands clench into fists as the air around them begins to cool.]
The Resistance is supposed to be gone, finally wiped out! And now they have a chance to regroup once more! Do you not understand anything about the war we're in?!
[Kylo barks a retort in response, his voice raised as he cuts Hux off, the floorboards cracking under his feet.]
Do you think I don't know that?!
[He takes a few breaths, his voice returning to his usual quiet volume, though with no less insistent a tone.]
Do you think it doesn't haunt me every day and night? That I don't know just how much I failed? However much you hate me for it will never be more than how much I hate myself.
Do you think I don't know that?!
[He takes a few breaths, his voice returning to his usual quiet volume, though with no less insistent a tone.]
Do you think it doesn't haunt me every day and night? That I don't know just how much I failed? However much you hate me for it will never be more than how much I hate myself.
And what was the first thing you did upon returning here?! You searched for Skywalker and tried to kill him again!! You've learned nothing despite your claim!
[He doesn't care how cold the air is turning now, let the bastard get cold in that robe ...A robe that Hux normally wears.
Even more reason to be annoyed at him.]
Anyone with even the smallest awareness knows that you failed! Acknowledging your mistakes doesn't matter until you actually show some self-restraint!!
[He doesn't care how cold the air is turning now, let the bastard get cold in that robe ...A robe that Hux normally wears.
Even more reason to be annoyed at him.]
Anyone with even the smallest awareness knows that you failed! Acknowledging your mistakes doesn't matter until you actually show some self-restraint!!
[It's pointless to try to explain himself. Hux doesn't care, clearly. He just wants to blame him, to focus on how pathetic he is, and yell at him for all his mistakes, no matter how minor or how he plans to rectify them.
It doesn't matter that Ren was overwhelmed with emotion when he reappeared, and that's why he went after Luke. It doesn't matter that he wants to take Hux's advice into account. It doesn't matter how much Ren missed him.
His gaze turning away and his lower lip twitching, he starts to leave the room, a trail of frost and snow following him.]
It doesn't matter that Ren was overwhelmed with emotion when he reappeared, and that's why he went after Luke. It doesn't matter that he wants to take Hux's advice into account. It doesn't matter how much Ren missed him.
His gaze turning away and his lower lip twitching, he starts to leave the room, a trail of frost and snow following him.]
Where do you think you're going?! We haven't finished speaking yet!
[Not only is it surprising to see Ren just walk away like this, but it angers Hux. How dare he just leave in the middle of their conversation?! How dare Ren just leave Hux like this when he still has things to say?
Humph, maybe there isn't much difference between this Ren and the one back home. Only difference is that he's not being tossed around or choked.]
[Not only is it surprising to see Ren just walk away like this, but it angers Hux. How dare he just leave in the middle of their conversation?! How dare Ren just leave Hux like this when he still has things to say?
Humph, maybe there isn't much difference between this Ren and the one back home. Only difference is that he's not being tossed around or choked.]
[He doesn't stop moving forward when Hux calls after him, merely muttering a quiet response as he heads towards the stairs.]
I don't have anything more to say.
I don't have anything more to say.
[He starts following Ren, not wanting their argument to end like that. Not to mention, he feels a little more confident around the Supreme Leader in Verens. Even if they didn't have... this relationship, death isn't permanent here. He doesn't have as much to fear, right?
It's not like Ren would hurt him too badly. Besides, Hux can handle it... he's been dealing with powerful Force users for years.]
Well, I still do! This conversation isn't over just because you want it to be!
It's not like Ren would hurt him too badly. Besides, Hux can handle it... he's been dealing with powerful Force users for years.]
Well, I still do! This conversation isn't over just because you want it to be!
[His answer is soft, almost defeated, but he doesn't stop in his movements up to the second floor.]
Say what you will.
[But Kylo can't look at him while he's doing it. It's bad enough sensing the hatred and anger pointed directly at him.]
Say what you will.
[But Kylo can't look at him while he's doing it. It's bad enough sensing the hatred and anger pointed directly at him.]
Look at me when I'm talking to you!
[Hux's anger only rises, not really noticing that Kylo is more defeated than anything. He's just under the impression that his partner deems it unnecessary to answer him, like he's not worth addressing.
A small wave of hurt comes from Hux, but it's buried beneath the anger and hatred.]
[Hux's anger only rises, not really noticing that Kylo is more defeated than anything. He's just under the impression that his partner deems it unnecessary to answer him, like he's not worth addressing.
A small wave of hurt comes from Hux, but it's buried beneath the anger and hatred.]
Edited 2018-02-14 01:02 (UTC)
[Although he complies with the demand almost immediately, first looking over his shoulder and then turning around on the stairs, there's a hard look in his eye.]
Why?
[His jaw is trembling slightly, though he's keeping most other physical manifestations of his feelings under control.]
So you can see how much it upsets me? Will that satisfy you, Armitage?
Why?
[His jaw is trembling slightly, though he's keeping most other physical manifestations of his feelings under control.]
So you can see how much it upsets me? Will that satisfy you, Armitage?
Edited (icon.) 2018-02-14 01:11 (UTC)
So I know that you're acknowledging my words!
[...Why is Kylo affected so much anyway? Hux supposes that he takes failure just as hard as him. That's the only reason, right?]
[...Why is Kylo affected so much anyway? Hux supposes that he takes failure just as hard as him. That's the only reason, right?]
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