Kylo "Worst Disney Princess" Ren (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
lostapprentice) wrote2035-01-06 02:37 am
lostapprentice) wrote2035-01-06 02:37 am
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What the Force willed in our own galaxy says nothing about what we should do here.
[He's not going to deny that it didn't come to him. That it didn't answer his call. But what he will deny is that any of that makes any difference here, outside their galaxy, outside their time.]
Perhaps it wasn't his right. But he gave it to me regardless, because I asked for it and told him how much value it had to me. Not as a weapon, but as my heritage.
[Some of the wood of the door starts to blacken around them as if from decay, parts of it even crumbling.]
Why does it matter so much to you? You must have at least three of them to yourself, locked away in a chest, doing nothing. On this planet they clearly mean nothing in the greater scheme, given how many it's brought.
[He's not going to deny that it didn't come to him. That it didn't answer his call. But what he will deny is that any of that makes any difference here, outside their galaxy, outside their time.]
Perhaps it wasn't his right. But he gave it to me regardless, because I asked for it and told him how much value it had to me. Not as a weapon, but as my heritage.
[Some of the wood of the door starts to blacken around them as if from decay, parts of it even crumbling.]
Why does it matter so much to you? You must have at least three of them to yourself, locked away in a chest, doing nothing. On this planet they clearly mean nothing in the greater scheme, given how many it's brought.
[Obi-Wan's eyes narrowed slightly. The Force worked in different ways here it was true, but to him, Kylo was grasping for excuses.]
To keep them safe. That is why it matters. Out of the hands I originally took them from, and any who would be like him.
That lightsaber was Luke's heritage. Something you have thrown away.
To keep them safe. That is why it matters. Out of the hands I originally took them from, and any who would be like him.
That lightsaber was Luke's heritage. Something you have thrown away.
[At the mention of Luke, harsh, almost hurt expression comes to his face, and he looks away. His uncle is still... a sore point. He kept trying to be distant, and yet—he couldn't, and Luke kept coming back. But now he's gone.
Kylo's left hand tightens against the door frame, cracking the brittle wood there. It's to keep it from trembling. He hadn't let himself think about it, when he realized Luke was gone, but now...]
You don't have any idea what I have or haven't given up. [His voice is a bit quieter, though he still tries to keep up the belligerence, the anger. His shadow starts to darken to black.]
Kylo's left hand tightens against the door frame, cracking the brittle wood there. It's to keep it from trembling. He hadn't let himself think about it, when he realized Luke was gone, but now...]
You don't have any idea what I have or haven't given up. [His voice is a bit quieter, though he still tries to keep up the belligerence, the anger. His shadow starts to darken to black.]
[Watching Kylo silently, Obi-Wan's face softened. No matter how resolute he tried to be, his compassion always overruled when given the opportunity.]
Perhaps I could if you would tell me.
Perhaps I could if you would tell me.
[The effort he's putting into keeping himself from being visibly upset is, unfortunately, visible in the tightness of his expression, and even though there's a glare on his face, his eyes are shining a bit too brightly. His words are strained as well, and he has to force them out so that they don't sound as pathetic as he feels.]
Just because I'm not a Jedi doesn't mean I—
[hate my uncle, he's going to say, but his voice breaks and he has to cut himself off, clamping his jaw shut and trembling with a miserable look on his face that says he's furious with himself.
He can't change what he's done in their galaxy, or what he will continue to do. The him of this place... it's separate from all of that. He's allowed for that separation, has accepted it, that the possibilities here don't have to be the same at home, and so he'd come closer to accepting his family, the Jedi, having a peaceful truce with them even if he didn't necessarily want to be a part of them. Could Obi-Wan not understand that?]
Just because I'm not a Jedi doesn't mean I—
[hate my uncle, he's going to say, but his voice breaks and he has to cut himself off, clamping his jaw shut and trembling with a miserable look on his face that says he's furious with himself.
He can't change what he's done in their galaxy, or what he will continue to do. The him of this place... it's separate from all of that. He's allowed for that separation, has accepted it, that the possibilities here don't have to be the same at home, and so he'd come closer to accepting his family, the Jedi, having a peaceful truce with them even if he didn't necessarily want to be a part of them. Could Obi-Wan not understand that?]
[ Good, keep thinking positive thoughts Ren. Poe didn't really want to get too many other more people involved really. Saying everything out loud though helped him realize that this could be a lot of people at fault. Even if they may not see it as such. He'll accept his own faults and actions for not telling her. But the item itself was still from their friend, if she really needed it as a sentimental item she could have said that. ]
It should have stayed between Rey and I but she went to Kenobi. I learned more than what I wanted since I didn't understand the Jedi at all.
I told him that you were different but I don't think he really cared to listen to what I had to say. Not that I really care, I say my opinions and I mean them. The last time someone didn't want to listen I left the New Republic, because it was about the First Order.
I think I figured it out anyway. Being able to speak it all out in the open was helpful. I'm sorry to have went on with it. I just wanted to warn you since there was no promises of him keeping it between us.
[ And this business started between Poe and Ren. He couldn't not warn but he wasn't going to be adding in additional people. It would stay between Ren, Obi-Wan, Rey and him. If he needed to say anything to anyone he would be very vague about it. ]
It should have stayed between Rey and I but she went to Kenobi. I learned more than what I wanted since I didn't understand the Jedi at all.
I told him that you were different but I don't think he really cared to listen to what I had to say. Not that I really care, I say my opinions and I mean them. The last time someone didn't want to listen I left the New Republic, because it was about the First Order.
I think I figured it out anyway. Being able to speak it all out in the open was helpful. I'm sorry to have went on with it. I just wanted to warn you since there was no promises of him keeping it between us.
[ And this business started between Poe and Ren. He couldn't not warn but he wasn't going to be adding in additional people. It would stay between Ren, Obi-Wan, Rey and him. If he needed to say anything to anyone he would be very vague about it. ]
[He would be lying if he said he wasn't surprised by this emotional display. It's not exactly what he had expected. Nor did he realize that Kylo really cared that much about Luke. Though he knew Luke cared about Ren. In a way, their relationship was somewhat similar to his and Anakin's.]
Ben...
[But at the same time, Obi-Wan had always been faithful and loyal to his 'family' who were then ripped away from him. So it was difficult for him to completely understand Kylo's point of view. His words though were soft and careful.]
Talk to me. Don't fight it.
Ben...
[But at the same time, Obi-Wan had always been faithful and loyal to his 'family' who were then ripped away from him. So it was difficult for him to completely understand Kylo's point of view. His words though were soft and careful.]
Talk to me. Don't fight it.
Edited 2017-04-15 23:42 (UTC)
[He hates himself for this, for feeling this way and letting it display so clearly, and he especially hates how snowflakes start to manifest around them and gently fall. But still he resists and turns his face to only show the scarred side to Obi-Wan, and he's grateful that when a tear does finally escape, it's only from the opposite side. It's a small victory for his pride.]
Just go.
[He's not looking at Obi-Wan, but he hasn't turned around and closed the door yet, either.]
Just go.
[He's not looking at Obi-Wan, but he hasn't turned around and closed the door yet, either.]
[He wanted to reach out to him, but restrained himself. At least physically. Watching as Kylo turned his face away. His heart sinking a little.]
... I came here because there is a girl who is distraught over losing a friend and a valued item. And... because there's little left of a people that I can protect.
But...
I won't take it by force. Because she doesn't want to lose you too. ... And neither do I.
[With those words said, he lifted his eyes to look at the snowflakes and then raise his hood over his head before he turned to go.]
... I came here because there is a girl who is distraught over losing a friend and a valued item. And... because there's little left of a people that I can protect.
But...
I won't take it by force. Because she doesn't want to lose you too. ... And neither do I.
[With those words said, he lifted his eyes to look at the snowflakes and then raise his hood over his head before he turned to go.]
Edited 2017-04-16 00:24 (UTC)
[Kylo hadn't expected the Jedi to actually... leave.
But he says nothing, turning to watch Obi-Wan go after a few moments. There's a part of him that wants to reach out and call for him to come back, but he doesn't, more tears falling as the other man's back moves further and further away.
He doesn't know how he should feel, but what he does feel is an awful mix of grief, guilt, and a familial love he doesn't deserve and doesn't want to deal with.]
But he says nothing, turning to watch Obi-Wan go after a few moments. There's a part of him that wants to reach out and call for him to come back, but he doesn't, more tears falling as the other man's back moves further and further away.
He doesn't know how he should feel, but what he does feel is an awful mix of grief, guilt, and a familial love he doesn't deserve and doesn't want to deal with.]
[But he does just that. The Jedi perhaps even hoping that Ben might call out to him. But he doesn't. And as he disappears around a corner. There's nothing but a small patch of frosty mushrooms left where he had been standing.]
Edited 2017-04-16 00:50 (UTC)
... It's fine.
[It's said a little tersely, but there's less bitterness in the words than Poe might expect. His tone mostly comes from the fact that he doesn't like saying comforting things unless he particularly likes a person.]
I'll take care of it as it comes.
[It's said a little tersely, but there's less bitterness in the words than Poe might expect. His tone mostly comes from the fact that he doesn't like saying comforting things unless he particularly likes a person.]
I'll take care of it as it comes.
[ Poe's last experience with a religious group was a bit crazy. He did believe at one point that their savior could have kicked Terex's butt but that's not what happened. That experience alone was something. Including ditching his own blaster to prove a point when in the end was risky to do. ]
I know you'll be able to handle it. I just didn't want you to be surprised or caught off guard.
[ It's weird to say that to Kylo Ren but his words sound true even though it's mixed with some doubts. He will figure out how to make things up to other people. Even if it means doing a task for many months. He nursed a Jedi tree back to health and was doing that for an entire year. If anything he knows that he can fix his mistakes. It's just a matter of how. ]
I'll let you get back to what you were doing.
[ There's a small leak of more doubt and some regret but it's not really meant towards Ren, it's what he's going to do next and he closes the connection before any other emotions drop in. ]
I know you'll be able to handle it. I just didn't want you to be surprised or caught off guard.
[ It's weird to say that to Kylo Ren but his words sound true even though it's mixed with some doubts. He will figure out how to make things up to other people. Even if it means doing a task for many months. He nursed a Jedi tree back to health and was doing that for an entire year. If anything he knows that he can fix his mistakes. It's just a matter of how. ]
I'll let you get back to what you were doing.
[ There's a small leak of more doubt and some regret but it's not really meant towards Ren, it's what he's going to do next and he closes the connection before any other emotions drop in. ]
[There's a hint of curiosity that comes through the connection as Kylo considers the emotions he's getting from the other side, and even if he didn't exactly sign up for all of that there's still the sense of him tilting his head and examining Poe.
But he says nothing, and when Dameron breaks off the connection, he has no desire to stop that from happening. He will indeed get back to what he was doing.
... humph. Good luck, pilot.]
But he says nothing, and when Dameron breaks off the connection, he has no desire to stop that from happening. He will indeed get back to what he was doing.
... humph. Good luck, pilot.]
[ Well, this may be a little random, by let's just say that Anakin is being a little bored... As he often is. ]
Has your mother always been so difficult to deal with?
[ There's a clear frustration carrying the message. ]
Has your mother always been so difficult to deal with?
[ There's a clear frustration carrying the message. ]
[Well, this is definitely unexpected. Even if it's... Anakin... even then Kylo can't resist the urge to join in on insulting his mother.]
Yes.
[And since he's already put one foot into the conversation, he might as well:]
What did she do this time?
Yes.
[And since he's already put one foot into the conversation, he might as well:]
What did she do this time?
I assume you're aware that she's very adamant from preventing us to have any sort of interaction with one another.
[ Consider this his act of rebellion against his own daughter. ]
I'm sure by now that I can do or say what I want, she will disagree for the sole sake of disagreeing with me. It's... Frustrating.
[ Consider this his act of rebellion against his own daughter. ]
I'm sure by now that I can do or say what I want, she will disagree for the sole sake of disagreeing with me. It's... Frustrating.
I'm aware enough. It's almost funny how much she blames you for her own mistakes.
[Except it's not funny at all. It's just disappointing and, as Anakin said, frustrating.]
She acts like she can control my life, even though she knows she has absolutely no power over anyone. I'm sure she's trying to exert the same over you, just because she can't see you're not Darth Vader.
[Except it's not funny at all. It's just disappointing and, as Anakin said, frustrating.]
She acts like she can control my life, even though she knows she has absolutely no power over anyone. I'm sure she's trying to exert the same over you, just because she can't see you're not Darth Vader.
Well, she certainly tries to order me around, despite not letting go of that obsession that I am Vader. Does she seriously believe Darth Vader would be taking orders from her?
[ Well, he's almost a little amused by that idea. ]
I can't really blame you for keeping your distance...
[ A pause, and then: ]
Anyway. She mentioned your birth name when she was here. I assume you prefer to be addressed as Kylo Ren. Is that correct?
[ So far that's been the only name he's had to use. ]
[ Well, he's almost a little amused by that idea. ]
I can't really blame you for keeping your distance...
[ A pause, and then: ]
Anyway. She mentioned your birth name when she was here. I assume you prefer to be addressed as Kylo Ren. Is that correct?
[ So far that's been the only name he's had to use. ]
I'm sure she's aware enough of that disconnect and is trying to take advantage of it and those around you. Even she's not stupid enough to confront Darth Vader to his face.
[... mostly.
But bah, of course that name would come up. He hates that more people are learning that name. He never should have told anyone about it; he's the only one who would have known otherwise...]
Of course I do. I wouldn't have told you my name is Kylo Ren if I didn't want you to use it.
[... mostly.
But bah, of course that name would come up. He hates that more people are learning that name. He never should have told anyone about it; he's the only one who would have known otherwise...]
Of course I do. I wouldn't have told you my name is Kylo Ren if I didn't want you to use it.
I understand.
[ About the name. ]
None of those around me are easily exploited, she will end up disappointed. Which I guess is only fair, given that she's greatly disappointing me so far.
[ And it shows in his voice. ]
Even if I try to offer her a compromise, she just flat out refuses anything I say and stubbornly insists to have it her way. I've dealt with stubborn politicians in the past, but this isn't going to get anyone anywhere! Not that she's obviously not the only one to not trust me.
[ Here, his mood crumbles entirely, a distinct sheen of anger lining his words. ]
No one tells me anything anymore.
[ About the name. ]
None of those around me are easily exploited, she will end up disappointed. Which I guess is only fair, given that she's greatly disappointing me so far.
[ And it shows in his voice. ]
Even if I try to offer her a compromise, she just flat out refuses anything I say and stubbornly insists to have it her way. I've dealt with stubborn politicians in the past, but this isn't going to get anyone anywhere! Not that she's obviously not the only one to not trust me.
[ Here, his mood crumbles entirely, a distinct sheen of anger lining his words. ]
No one tells me anything anymore.
I know the feeling.
[Hm. He's not certain if this is the wisest course of action, but really... when it comes to spiting his mother, Kylo is willing to do a great many things, some of them possibly stupid.
(And that's all it's about. It's not about his sympathy for his grandfather.)]
Well. If you want to know things about the future, you've come to the one who's most likely to have answers.
[Hm. He's not certain if this is the wisest course of action, but really... when it comes to spiting his mother, Kylo is willing to do a great many things, some of them possibly stupid.
(And that's all it's about. It's not about his sympathy for his grandfather.)]
Well. If you want to know things about the future, you've come to the one who's most likely to have answers.
ACTION-ish bc mom misses you, ben. probably like 5/1ish or 5/2?
oratorical
2017-04-29 04:22 am (UTC)(link)
[Look, if you ask Leia, she doesn't really need a reason to visit Ben beyond the fact that, despite seeing him at the flower festival, she hasn't spoken with him in a long time. He's her son and she loves him and even if he's generally rude and dismissive, it's nice to hear his voice and know he's okay. It's a different sort of feeling than hearing him talk to someone else from a distance.
But Leia also knows that Ben doesn't quite agree with her, and that if she wants him to actually talk to her, she'll need a reason for this visit. And she does have a few reasons in mind, a few things she needs and wants clarification on. It's just a matter of where to start. ...Probably with the awkward one, get that out of the way, if possible.
She's sure Ben knows she's around, no matter what she does. So, as she draws closer to his house, Leia decides to, at the very least, give Ben some forewarning before showing up.]
You are at home, aren't you?
But Leia also knows that Ben doesn't quite agree with her, and that if she wants him to actually talk to her, she'll need a reason for this visit. And she does have a few reasons in mind, a few things she needs and wants clarification on. It's just a matter of where to start. ...Probably with the awkward one, get that out of the way, if possible.
She's sure Ben knows she's around, no matter what she does. So, as she draws closer to his house, Leia decides to, at the very least, give Ben some forewarning before showing up.]
You are at home, aren't you?
[A great way to start the month, Kylo thinks: a conversation with his mother. But knowing how stubborn she is and not quite having the energy to shut her out entirely, he goes ahead and lets his first thought through:]
What do you want.
[It's probably a similar greeting to the one he gave the last time they spoke, but at least it's more... mildly annoyed rather than defensive and harsh. It's sort of an answer to her question, as well, though it... may be difficult to tell.]
What do you want.
[It's probably a similar greeting to the one he gave the last time they spoke, but at least it's more... mildly annoyed rather than defensive and harsh. It's sort of an answer to her question, as well, though it... may be difficult to tell.]
[It's not at all as defensive and angry as she had been expecting, and given the last time she saw Ben, she's unsure whether that's a good thing or not. Because while on one hand she's glad he's being somewhat more open to talking with her, on the other, it could be a sign that his confession hadn't gone as he planned after she left. Granted, she's not sure whether he'd even be the type to brood over that for so long, but if that were the case, it would've had to hurt.
And she may hate Hux, but she would hate Ben being miserable more.]
I want to talk.
[Which is obvious enough. But she knows just that probably won't be enough for him.]
I haven't seen you in some time. Your father and I missed you, you know. At the wedding.
And she may hate Hux, but she would hate Ben being miserable more.]
I want to talk.
[Which is obvious enough. But she knows just that probably won't be enough for him.]
I haven't seen you in some time. Your father and I missed you, you know. At the wedding.
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