[It's wrong-- everything is wrong. The fact that Kylo used his first name... the show of concern for his well-being as if he actually cared. Even as memories abruptly return to him, nothing about this entire scenario is right. Because how could he hold any sort of feelings for this man? Someone that practically demoted him, regulated all tasks to those knights and Pryde. Someone that led the First Order to complete ruin.
He's always hated him.
Yet despite all that, a small part of him-- a part of Hux that he completely loathes and only seem to exist in this world, wants to reach out to him, the desperation and longing mixed in with his usual anger and hate that he holds for Kylo Ren. He remembers being happy for once, feeling a sort of contentment that he's never had and it's all because of him.
But thinking about what happened to him in that year, his final fate on the Steadfast... it's more than easy to shove those more positive feelings aside.
Despite all these whirling thoughts, Hux remains unnaturally still, his eyes staring at Kylo's form, the only sign of awareness being an occasional blink, mixed in with his emotions slowly cracking the ground and walls around him. But as if a rubber band's finally snapped, Hux moves-- a thin blade quickly appearing from his jacket's sleeve, before stabbing it straight towards Kylo's face.]
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He's always hated him.
Yet despite all that, a small part of him-- a part of Hux that he completely loathes and only seem to exist in this world, wants to reach out to him, the desperation and longing mixed in with his usual anger and hate that he holds for Kylo Ren. He remembers being happy for once, feeling a sort of contentment that he's never had and it's all because of him.
But thinking about what happened to him in that year, his final fate on the Steadfast... it's more than easy to shove those more positive feelings aside.
Despite all these whirling thoughts, Hux remains unnaturally still, his eyes staring at Kylo's form, the only sign of awareness being an occasional blink, mixed in with his emotions slowly cracking the ground and walls around him. But as if a rubber band's finally snapped, Hux moves-- a thin blade quickly appearing from his jacket's sleeve, before stabbing it straight towards Kylo's face.]